At 34...

At last, July is here! My birth month. For the past 13 years since I graduated from college and faced the world of endless possibilities, I realized that things had been happening at the blink of my eye. Almost a decade since I have been out of school and to think that I felt I haven't accomplished much. Before when things were just about me, I just brushed it off and thought I still have a long way to go. So many things to happen still. But then again, looking back, I realized that I also missed a lot of things. That's when opportunities were endless. Whatever comes your way, grab it, experience it, treasure it and when all things fail or didn't come our own way that's when you say it's not meant to be, it's not a mistake, it's not our failure but we have to face the reality in life that we cannot have it all.

Now that I'll be turning 34, looking aback, I'm proud to say that somehow I stand with my two feet on the ground. I may not be the licensed Interior/ Furniture designer that I want to be, I may not be working in Singapore, I may not have savings in my account, I may not have traveled a lot, I may not have a healthy and firm looking body, I may not be physically beautiful (flawless, tall, flat abs and having soft and bouncy hair) and well-endowed (malaki ang hinaharap at puwet), I may not have confidence in myself, I may have a lot of insecurities and worries, I may not be a good mother or a submitting wife but in the end I am still standing with dignity and integrity with me. I thought I'm losing myself because of physical factors surrounding me. But I thank my God for standing by me. 

I am celebrating life because I am alive, I am ill-free, I have my family, I have a job to sustain my everyday living, I have a house to go home to, I eat 3 to 5 times a day, I have clothes to wear, I have a blog that keeps me sane, I have complete senses, I have kids that brings pure joy and love and above all I have my God who keeps me safe and protected at all times. 

Now, I wish not for any material things or a big party for my coming birthday. I just pray to God that He will give me the right nanny for my 9 month old baby. My previous nanny left us for good. That's why I haven't blogged for a few days now because I am emotionally tired. I mercifully pray to God that He grant this little favor I have in my heart, in Jesus Almighty name, AMEN!