Blogging: my new personal diary

Just this morning, I felt another episode of dismay. I just couldn't express it in words to avoid further discussions and turning a bad day to my companions at the house. I just thought I would reserve it to my personal diary which is my blog. I find relief whenever I write something here. May it be happy thoughts, bad experience or ill feelings to a person. I don't know until when will I go through all of these things which bothers me a lot every single day and for these people to realize that if everybody works together without depending on other people to work on their supposed role, then there would be no heavy load. A woman plays a lot of role in the family and even in the society as a whole. She can even do what man can do. But why cannot be the other way around? Gender-sensitivity comes in. I envy women who have strong support system in their household. I don't know if there's something wrong with the way I handle myself or my household. It's just that I don't have the right vibes and I need to silence myself for a while to reflect on things because I feel my environment is very chaotic. I cannot think properly. But how can I? My hands are so full that I cannot even handle my own well. I know I've been missing my God for a long time. But I know He's just there for me. Waiting for my call. I have to start my personal contact with my Creator. I know and I'm guilty with this. It is not an easy journey because from the start I've been journeying all by myself. And I know my God is always there for me and He has been my support system all through out. I gotta save myself from going nowhere. In short, I think I'm lost. Please help!