I missed her during my wedding in 2010 because when my sister and 2 cousins got married in 2008, my Lola is still alive. Her presence was never there. But I know she was there and is happy looking from above. Now that she's not with us anymore, she still has a strong presence in us. And that because, she and my "Lolo" (a Filipino term which means grandfather) who is now 92 years old and is very much active and still manages in taking care his ducks and chickens in his backyard, lives just at the back of my parents' house. Twice a month since her death, we and my relatives visits her in the memorial park. Bad thing that when I got married and have a child, I occasionally come to visit her for how many months now...(guilty mode!).
Lola Juans, you'll always be a part of us. I know you're looking at us and every time my Baby Mariella is smiling at nobody, I know that you are playing with her and protecting her all the time. I love you, Lola! (teary-eyed mode;)
(to post a picture of her soon in my tribute to my dearest Lola Juaning)